a night of revelations..

Tonight was the first night of Ps Phil's week-long conference and it was truly an amazing one, which I believe will only get better as he continues to share his revelations with us for the next few nights. :)

Honestly, I was rather distracted this afternoon as I received SMS upon SMS from my friends in NIE telling me that our posting of schools was out. What kind of school will I go to? What will the kids be like? What about the other teachers and staff? I wondered. I wanted to open up my letterbox immediately and just rip open the letter to see what was written on it, but I couldn't cos the key wasn't with me, so I had to contain my curiosity all the way to church, wondering about my posting.

On my long train ride to church, I smsed Sabrina about my feelings towards my posting, and being the wonderful friend that she always is, she smsed me verses from the bible to encourage me. I thank God for this wonderful sister who has always been there for me since I started coming to CHC. :)

As praise and worship started tonight, I purposed in my heart not to let my posting bother me, but to focus on God, our great and mighty Lord & Saviour, to be lost in Him alone...yes Him alone. Just like what Ps Phil said, worship is not about putting God first in our lives, but it's about making Him the ONLY ONE in our lives, worshipping Him alone, not allowing other things in our lives to distract us from God.

Ps shared with us some things that really spoke into my heart tonight. Our lives are not perfect, cos we live in an imperfect world, but even in bad times when the storm comes, God is always there, in the cloud of glory. WE ourselves make the decision to focus on the storm or the cloud of glory. Many times, most of us tend to look at the negative cos there is some comfort there and we fall into this state of self-pity or self-consolation. So we need to have this 'ruthlessness' not to focus on the bad but to focus on God, the cloud of glory of God and enter into it, where in it we will find our destiny in life, God's vision for our lives.

Ps also mentioned about us being left in a certain place, so we can maximise our potential in that place and grow, that we are called to set things in order in that place. That really helped me a lot as when I got home and opened the envelope and saw my posting, I sensed a peaceful feeling in my heart, something that I haven't felt for a long time. Though I don't know much about this school that I have been posted to and it's a rather unexpected one to me, but I know God is with me, that He has called me for a purpose in that school. No matter what happens, be it good times or bad times, He is always beside me, walking with me all the way :) .

I guess it must be the anointing from church just now, but I can sense deep down inside of me that something is changing, I don't really know what it is but I believe it's from God and it has to be something good :)