hold on to God Bel...HOLD ON...

I had to go to school today again, while everyone else I know from other schools are having their hols, I had to go back to WORK. Honestly, I felt that it was a real waste of time cos the Wordpower semi-finals is on Wed and I still have about 15 more verses to go. I really don't know how I'm going to finish memorising all of my verses...60 of them to be exact...word for word..by tomorrow afternoon. And I'm feeling so sleepy now and it's only 7pm! My first week in school last week wasn't a pleasant experience, the only comfort I really had was going to CG on Thu night and of course service on Fri night. Ps Kong really preached a wonderful sermon that day. When Tristan asked me before service if I had a desire to teach children, I couldn't really give him an answer. Before I started my present job in this new place, I loved my previous school a lot, I really did. It was during the time I spent there that I started going to CHC, got saved, taught a bunch of kids there that really loved me and I love them as well...honestly until now I admit I still miss them a lot.. and there were people around me who were always so encouraging, although of course there were still a few not so nice ones around. But my life started changing from there and if there was one place I could choose to work in, I would choose that place. But coming to this new place and meeting new people and new demands has been quite demoralising these few days. I know Ps Kong talked about the paradigm shift and how the Holy Spirit is moving in a new direction. Father, show me the way You want me to move, help me to see things more positively and not to be negative about my new environment. God, help me please! Lead me Holy Spirit so I can see the path ahead. I need You in my life...