I missed my lesson observations this week, n i really don't know how i feel about it. Somehow i feel mad with myself cos i was rushing through the big book with my class on fri afternoon where i was supposed to do the Day 1 and 2 activity (i squeezed both days' activities into 1 day), cos i was supposed to be observed for Day 3 and 4 activities this week n i was just so hoping i could get the observations done with. But i haven't really been feeling well these 2 days, the doctor was saying that i must be under a lot of pressure. I tend to think a lot, even when i'm on mc, i'll be thinking about the things that i need to do the next day, and just now, during the nap i took, i even dreamt that i was in class and i was scolding 1 of my boys in class! i woke up immediately after that and it just totally spoilt my nap, cos i couldn't sleep anymore though i felt so drowsy still.

Something's wrong with me these past few weeks and i dun really know what it is, it's either i really dunno what is wrong or my heart knows what is wrong but my brain refuses to see it and i feel kinda blinded...i know it sounds like i'm blabbering...it's like there's a burden inside me but i can't figure out what it is..and it was really affecting me on sat and sun while singing and i don't like it at all cos i want my Spirit man to be up and alive in the Lord, especially when it's Team B's turn to sing and we need to minister to the congregation. What's this burden about? At first, i thought it was the matter that sis kless talked with me abt on Sat but after that, i realised the burden wasn't about that. i really need to know..been praying but the answer hasn't come.

God i know You are the One who will save and You will cover me with Your grace and lead and guide me, show me Your way, Jesus and guide me, Holy Spirit.