Stressed...

What's wrong with myself? I feel like a nervous wreck right now, even when i'm on mc today, i'll keep having really bad thoughts about myself..just kept on thinking about work..doesnt even feel like a rest day at all..sigh.. right now i'm wondering why i even got myself into this.. n if i'm up to it all..i just feel like i cant face my workplace at all today..face the pple there..it was a real chore going there last wk too..sometimes dunno how i'm gng to spend the next few years there..it's not really that i have no friends there..i do...n they really bother to watch out for me, reminding me of things i need to submit so i wont get into so much trouble..sometimes i wish the break were longer so i can just settle my thoughts n everything...I just wish my Father would come through for me..feel so scared right now...pull me out of this Father...