sometimes u might think something is 'like that', but in reality it might not be, be careful of the thoughts that run through your mind, choose to listen only to the positive ones, n throw the negative ones away...easier said than done, especially for someone like me..sometimes i guess pple will wonder why i behave in a certain manner, i apologise for those moments, all of us have areas where we need to change, don't u agree? :) we r all different, which makes us unique. there are areas where u might not have problems with, n i do, n there r areas i might not struggle so much with, but u do. we r all unique individuals n we need to learn from one another the gd areas the other person has. i am still learning to accept myself n also the differences others around me have..

last fri we had a discipleship session with bro isaiah after cg, maybe u might think i'm weird, but i actually love discipleship..i'm not talking abt the lovey-dovey dreamy 'love'...but i'd describe it as more of an appreciative type of 'love'...i'm really touched n appreciate the fact that he bothered to disciple us even though we r not his cg members, he could have just left without saying anything. N i learnt a lot that day, thanks bro isaiah, if u do read this... u really are a good discipler, being able to disciple us without making me (at least) offended n yet what u said that night made me go back reflecting upon what u said..n thanks for the Word u gave to me that day... to move to the frontline n not just play a supporting role...

gotta change my mindset...cos i've always thought in my mind that i need to play a supporting role before i can get my promotion, be it in church ministry or my workplace. In children's church in the past, i played a supporting role by doing attendance even when my service IC asked me to help out more inside. In choir now, i'm really awed by how enthusiastic n vibrant everyone is that i sometimes wonder if i joined the right ministry, but i'm glad that in my heart, i can hear God telling me that His plans for me r good and He will use my time in choir to bring me to a whole new level. I'm really not used to being in front of people yet (even though i'm a teacher by profession), n i really found it hard to swallow last yr when bro mark told us during choir prac that we r ambassadors for Jesus when we stand on the stage n sing...it just made me realise how small i thought i was...but i believe that will change n i will be able to be a worshipper worthy to be called a worshipper of God...amen :)