Saturday afternoon

The 1st part of my Sat afternoon was spent at Bro Victor's house at a sharing session conducted by Bro Victor himself. Although the grp was really small with only the 4 of us, the Holy Spirit was there to minister to us. I felt really bad abt being late cos i got lost, n i could just feel the feeling of condemnation rising up in me again, but once i got into the room, i told myself that i needed to put aside those feelings n focus on God, n solely on Him n stepping out if i was given the opportunity to do so.

It was a gd sharing session n later when bro victor spoke a word to each of us, i felt so reassured in my heart when he gave me a word...it was wat i really needed to hear n it confirmed some of the visions i would see from time to time...when he said that i was God's surprise to others n He would use me as His channel..tears just flowed so hard from my face...n i could see some of the faces of pple whom i would be a surprise to as they said it to me that i was a big surprise to them...

something else that really struck me was when bro victor said God had chosen me..n i'm really thankful to God for using bro victor to say it to me..cos it's something i have prayed for many, many times...because there's a verse in the bible that says 'many are called, but few are chosen'.. n ever since i had the desire to be a CGL for God 1 day, i had always prayed to God that i did not want to just be called, but i wanted to be CHOSEN by HIM..it was something that really touched my heart..n even as i'm typing this out now, i can't believe that tears are streaming down my face.. it was really, really reassuring, cos many times i have doubted if i heard correctly from God or whether the things i have thought of doing are in God's plan for my life, but bro victor n sis klessis have really ministered to me these 2 days. Thanks bro victor n sis klessis.

Sis kless, if you are reading this, yes, what u told me at the end of the cg meeting, during ministering time, was really something i have been thinking abt for a long, long time, all these 2, 3 yrs... n i think it's going to come to past very, very soon. :)

i know what i have gone thru n what i'm going through now are things that will help me in the future, no matter whether these things are gd or tough, n God i thank You for these experiences.