tests and changes

These days things have happened to me, though they are not within my control and you can't really put the blame on anyone when u really think about it, but somehow at that point of time when it happens, i'll always blame myself for it happening. I know that God allows things to happen to us cos He knows we can handle it.. and i realise today (He must be wondering to Himself 'Why did she take so long to realise it?') that all these things are really tests for me..testing my patience, testing my self-esteem..which is where the confession of Romans 8:1 comes in...

Romans 8:1
There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit.

Maybe u don't understand why i have these issues with self-esteem...i don't like having problems with them too, but problem is i do... n i need to put in more effort than others to deal with them each time they start to surface.

There are other things i've started to learn to accept..things beyond my control.. n i am just trusting God for new and good things to come my way..because i'm sensing that things are changing, that i shouldn't cling on to these old things and expect them to stay the same as it used to be.. but i need to learn to flow with the changes in my life..yes i do feel kinda sad that things have to change but yet i know in my heart that it's for the best n the new things will be good, because they are from God, n when it's from God, He only gives us His best. God, please give me Your grace and mercy to help me to adapt to the changes and learn to flow with You, Holy Spirit, cos without You, i am nothing.