Disappointed..

Was on leave since yesterday cos i was having a really bad throat..could barely speak yesterday but after a good long sleep things got better and i could speak again..thank God. Dr gave me 2 days of mc so i got a gd rest, but tomorrow i'll be back in sch again. Need to pick up my momentum again..

Don't know why, but i feel kinda disappointed..disappointed over something that happened over the weekend. But i guess some things are meant to be this way. Right now, i just wish God would step in and take over, take away this disappointment in me.

However, this disappointment has shown me certain things as well...that in EVERYTHING we need to put God first, whatever we do, we need to trust Him wholeheartedly. Sometimes doubts do creep into my mind, and i do wonder if God will bring me through certain areas, but i also know that God has shown Himself faithful to me many many times, even in situations that i can't explain. So for this situation God, i'll leave it in Your hands, for i know You have the best plans in store for me because Your ways are higher than my ways, Your thoughts than my thoughts.

Patience is something else i need to learn..i can be quite an impatient person sometimes,wishing i could get some things done more quickly, wishing my family members would be saved more quickly, wishing i could rise up faster... but God has shown me that He makes all things beautiful in His time, that sometimes i have to WAIT before certain things can happen.

Waiting...something many people don't like, especially in this generation, when we have so many 'instant' things...instant noodles, instant porridge..we want things fast..we want things NOW! But God thinks otherwise, yes there may be times when He gives u what u want quickly cos He thinks it's the right time or because u want it SO badly that He just says 'all right, since u want it now, here it is!'Just like the case of the children of Israel, they wanted a king to rule over them so badly that God gave them Saul, and Saul didn't turn out to be a good king.

For good things to happen, sometimes we need to wait..wait till God thinks it's the right time for us to go ahead, and for me, i realise that the waiting has taught me to appreciate things more. We need to let go and let God..leave matters in His hands and trust in Him that He knows the right timing to give it to us.