in a fix...

This morning was my 1st time being involved in PSLE marking..n honestly i was quite excited about it..though i wasn't exactly involved in marking..but a recorder instead, but it was still fun. Made a few new friends who sat at the same table as me today & a real coincidence that 3 of us are teaching lower pri n 1 of the gals is teaching in my practicum sch now. Today we didnt get to do much n actually we spent most of our time eating in the canteen...we had lunch AND teabreak..hmm..really should watch my waistline...but the sch was really nice to us...giving us $3 worth of coupons every day to buy food from the canteen for the next few days..which i'm really thankful for cos it's building fund season right now.. n i'm trying to cut down on my expenses..i limited myself to buying 1 new top this month..but my mum blessed me with a new one on Sun when we went out for dinner :) .

Right now, i'm kinda in a fix especially during choir orientation when sis annabelle said no black n white attire for singing in the choir..n horror of horrors.. most of my tops r black! N honestly i love wearing black too cos i think it suits me..hee...but now gotta look out for brighter colours n start changing my wardrobe bit by bit..

Actually i'm in a fix over some other things too..sometimes i dunno if i can cope with all of my responsibilities..responsibility as a teacher, civil servant, cg helper, choir member, etc. i know i can't do it all by myself...like what bro jason shared during choir practice last wed...with God, nothing is impossible...which means, when we PARTNER WITH God, nothing is impossible. It doesn't just mean that God helps us by Himself, but also that when we move TOGETHER WITH Him, we can do all things :)

Need to grow up...

Had to be in school by 750am this morning for oral exam..i was actually a reserve...n honestly, i was just hoping that i wouldn't be on duty so i could just mark my BIG pile of books ...but tough luck..gee..my 1st time giving oral..

Honestly, while giving oral, it just suddenly hit me that i can't be so childish anymore..but i have to GROW UP..that i'm actually an adult now...it used to be me taking the exams n being nervous n anxious...n hoping for others to come up to me n comfort me n tell me everything's ok..being so dependent on others...but now i realise that i am the 1 who needs to be encouraging..reassuring the students that everything is ok...sure i was nervous at 1st cos it was my 1st time giving oral..but when i saw the 1st girl..she looked so scared that i knew i had to be the 1 to be the grown up n not be childish anymore..so i gave her my most reassuring smile..n tried my best to guide her along the way.. i tried to be as friendly n reassuring as possible thruout the whole hour n a half with the rest of them..

When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
1 Corinthians 13:11

i guess this verse more or less expresses what i'm feeling right now..a burden in my heart..need to grow up bel..can't be a small gal anymore..

Wonder why...

Went for choir orientation just now and boy..felt kinda lost when i stepped into the room. Didn't see anyone i knew at first, but thank God for his kindness, met 2 of my grp members from my audition and later i met Daphne, a friend from church who's in another svc now, when we were put in the same team for games time. it was fun but i guess i'm the type that takes a while longer to warm up. We then proceeded to the room next door where sis annabelle told us more about choir. Stepping into the room kinda reminded me of the times when i had CIC class for children's church, same room, same arrangement of chairs..but different ministry now. Dunno why, but i feel excited yet kinda scared at the same time..i guess taking the step to join choir really needs me to step out of my comfort zone..away from doing what i was familiar with. When we were doing the praise segment, i just suddenly felt rather inadequate..worrying if i was moving correctly..wondering if i was doing it right. .Guess i need to be less self-conscious... n i think that's why God brought me into this ministry as well...like what Sis Annabelle said..it's not by chance that we r in choir but God has brought us here for a purpose.. n i believe God does not make mistakes..every experience we go thru will help us some way or another..

Do not fear, my child, for I am with you wherever u go, whatever you do..somehow i feel the Holy Spirit saying this in my heart right now as i'm typing this blog..thanks Lord..for always being with me..thru the good and the bumpy times..

Congratulations!!

Right now, just wanna dedicate this blog to some special people in my life. Firstly, congrats to my dear CG leader, Sis Klessis and her hubby Bro Isaiah on expecting their first child ..God's blessing has always been upon u n He will continue to do so :)
Hope u will continue to have a smooth pregnancy throughout the next 6 months.

And also congrats to my CG members Gary and Meiling on their marriage yesterday. A match made in heaven. :) It was great being part of your jie-mei team, thanks for the opportunity. I believe God will truly bless your marriage abundantly and He will bring many many wonderful things n experiences into your life as a couple together :) .